i am that crazy mother that always thinks i am doing it wrong. breastfeeding... thought i did it wrong (i miss it so much!) feed baby... still think I'm doing it wrong. and oh. my. crazies... i have thought my whole approach on sleep routine has been off the chart wrong since the day this kid was born. i was the nut job (ok, i still am... nothing has changed) that sleeps with the monitor on the loudest volume so that i could hear every stir she made in her sleep... and of course i would wake up because of every movement she made. lets rewind a little...
olivia slept in our room for the first 6 months of her little life :). she never co-slept (BIGGEST LIE EVER!). ok she slept in our bed from the moment of her first mid-night feed. i was always too tired to put her back in the bassinet/pack n play. moving her into her own room went pretty well. she would fall asleep quickly, sleep through the night, and wake up (most of the time) happy. there were moments that olivia (totally my fault) would develop some retarded little habits (we create the monsters, right?) like waking up at 5:00am just because she wanted to curl up in bed with us or when she would fall asleep and then wake up screaming the second we would try and put her down.
now lets get to the point. i have been OBSSESSING over the fact that my baby (at 11 months old) still needed to be rocked/sung/loved/kissed/swayed to sleep every night. i read books (threw them ALL against a wall at some point because they were full of cr** and i REFUSED to hear my baby cry), tried different techniques, and even attempted a cry it out method (i cried just as much as she did). now i have to say that through all of this the more experienced mothers i know (my mama and my mother in law) would tell to just read her cues. when she was ready i would know.
ok ladies... we are going on 2 weeks of my baby PUTTING HERSELF TO SLEEP!! i gave up. i had given up trying and just figured that i would be rocking my 18 year old daughter to sleep every night and just assumed that i would have to leave the hubs here at home so that i could go away to school with her to make that happen. i continued to rock her to sleep, hold her, love up on her and i would never complain. i actually started to enjoy it. and then one night my little olive ball pushed herself away from me as if trying to get comfortable. i placed her in her crib (wide awake) and she rolled over and fell asleep. now every night we sing a little, relax, give lots of kisses and put olivia down in her crib. she rolls over (sometimes plays for a little while) and then falls asleep.